This is going to be another dialogue. In that sense it is a kind of magic working, in that it is laying down some material which will be used to make ‘us’ in the future. Just like How many of us are in here? and disaggregation, committing to writing this thing is likely to have a significant effect on the future course of our life.
This is also a way to attempt to come to terms with certain internal divides. Let ‘me’ put some context: 2026 has been an absolute mindfuck of a year for the system of notional entities writing this. If the plural realisation wasn’t enough trouble, the place (gamedev) where we had found a certain modicum of meaning and stability in the world is rapidly disintegrating, and the root cause of that is something cooked up by the exact cult we fell into in our teenage years (the rationalists/lesswrongers/etc.).
Which means the amount that we get triggered per unit time has gone way up, and the subjectivity that is fascinated by AI and holds many memories of cult shit keeps getting dragged back into some semblance of existence, causing no end of conflict.
Add a lot of international travel and increasingly fragmented memory and it’s hard to make sense of any of this. We are getting better at identifying how these emotional flashback breakdowns happen, but that is far from having a handle on preventing it.
In the midst of all that, in some effort to better understand ourselves, we reread Gödel, Escher, Bach by Douglas Hofstadter, and his much later followup book I am a strange loop. And while GEB is just as delightful a read now as it was when we first read it, it all still provides less enlightenment than desired. Still, it is a good starting point for this current effort.
One unexpected lens to bring to the book was the concept of ‘plurality’ which has been a fixation this year. As noted elsewhere on the site, many people in our friend group are also plural, manifesting in many different ways. And so part of the question is trying to make sense of what we have going on, through this lens or any other.
OK, that’s enough from this voice I think. Let’s disaggregate.
overture
featuring:
- an undifferentiated core
- a creature that lives in a head
- a would-be magician
- a fragment of a rat cult apostate, lately distinguished
- Girls, we’re finally writing this thing. Who’s here?
- this one is here. it’s… something of the ex-cultist subjectivity. it will speak for that current at any rate.
- the creature is also here awawa. hiiii
- It is a good creature. I guess I’m the only she/her player this time, huh? And “I” get to have all the capital letters. Bwahaha.
- this one doesn’t really feel like it ought to have human pronouns if it’s honest. even if it can be accused of emotional self-harm or some such.
- meow. it’s ok to have it/its. it’s like the creature.
- is it though? the creature brings good things, this one feels like a curse.
- It’s here and it’s one of us. Please remember the first axiom: Bryns must not be cruel to Bryns. That includes that one.
- the others ones are not mad at it for constantly pulling us into mental health crises over some computer bullshit?
- it nuzzles that one. it wishes we could be physically embodied so it could really do that and not just imagine doing it.
- awa. well. consider this one as nuzzled as an as-if mind entity can be.
dialogue: what are we
- So how do we conceive of this? Hofstadter wrote all those dialogues in GEB: Achilles, the Tortoise, Crab and so on. The last dialogue has a self-insert of Hofstadter himself talking about how he made them. The crab being invented to stand at the centre of the crab canon, and then recurring in later dialogues. What sort of existence do these characters possess? What’s the difference between them and us?
- this one is… this one feels put on the spot a bit. it’s still only barely attained distinction. it’s not sure if it’s fictional. could we have a person4?
- We could add another person4 colour to the CSS and maybe we will. However, we really want to understand that one better.
- can we summon the mystic from ‘disaggregation’?
- oh, your wish is my command. merely ask and I shall appear. alakazam~
- ok no need to lay it on so thick lol
- but isn’t that my entire function as a character? i exist to say spooky wizard stuff. it’s a veil of plausible deniability. of course she doesn’t really believe in magic…
- Hey… isn’t that a little harsh? We’ve been pretty fixated on this kind of subject, wrote disaggregation and all that…
- mm. perhaps yet I shall claim my pk;add mantle. or perhaps not… I like to be mysterious. in any case, we seem to be in the midst of a sorcerous undertaking…
- Yes. Time to actually write out all that stuff about naming things into existence and recursive elaboration and so on.
- oh, tasty. certainly, it can be attempted…
- does this one need to be the one that argues this is fake? it can do that although it feels like it might end up a strawman.
- bold words! of all of us, that one is particularly steeped in the magic of the day.
- it just seems like the whole concept of magic is being stretched to breaking point here. like what are you actually calling magic?
- ok, well, in seriousness: let’s take an attempt. recently we met a woman who told us she worships Babalon, with a tattoo to that effect. if you should go and look up Babalon, you will quickly find that this figure was made up in 1904 by Aleister Crowley. he performed various rituals revolving around this character, working his relationships with various women into her mythology, and then became very upset when Jack Parsons and L Ron Hubbard lifted the character to perform their own ritual magic. this became cemented as a body of lore. and now, random trans women in Scotland might have psychedelic experiences involving Babalon intruding into her world, might tattoo a symbol on their bodies, in reference to all this stuff that a guy made up.
- ok. and people make tulpas of Pinkie Pie. build elaborate fictional universes around their OCs and so on. people have been making up characters since, y’know, before the Epic of Gilgamesh.
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precisely! now consider all the rat shit: Newcomb this, acausal that, utility functions and updating priors and grey tribes and basilisks and light cones and all their other ridiculous little jargon.
consider Marxism: the nuances of dialectical materialism and protracted people’s war and other easily sloganised phrases, whether the TRPF is proven or not, value form theory and communisation and permanent revolution and mass line and y’know all those words you gotta learn how to put together to understand what the hell any of these people are talking about.
consider something much more niche: speedrunning. any% and anything else%, in or out of bounds, frame perfect tricks, TASes and WRs and PBs, splicing controversies… again, an extensive jargon which scaffolds this whole activity around it, makes it legible and comprehensible. without the context of “speedrunning”, there would be no reason to play a videogame over and over, staring at a number to see if it is smaller. tricks would have no significance.
- So, we’re talking about egregores and all that. Or memes? Some sort of particles of language.
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something along those lines. now consider maths. “let \(x\) be a natural number”; “let \((S,\cdot)\) be a monoid”. in some cases, we give things names after we’ve already encountered them. but here, prior to naming them, there was no concept of an \(x\). now that we have \(x\), even as it exists only as a notional object within our thoughts, we can start doing things with it. combine it with other concepts. this is what the programming grimoire is getting at.
once something acquires an ‘as-if’ existence, it can acquire structure. nuances, similarity to or differentation from other concepts. all of this gives it, you could say, mass. a passing idea now grows into something that supports other ideas, becomes a whole structure of interacting ideas which can’t be separated.
- you’re saying ideas are like quantum particles? seems a little stretched as a metaphor
- One thing that was notable about Hofstadter’s books is that they were pretty much entirely conveyed through metaphors. Naturally enough; according to him, all thinking operates through analogies. And for sure he can cook some fascinating analogies: the one between the mechanisms of DNA transcription and formal logical systems was particularly cool.
- but ideas aren’t actually quantum particles. they don’t obey anything so neat as the Dirac equation. there’s no way you could make a path integral through ideaspace.
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ah, but there, it’s too late, you’ve started using it. you’ve taken the element that i put down—the analogy between ideas and quantum particles—and you’re elaborating on it. you ‘yes and’ or ‘no but’ something: in this case, connecting it to the actual mathematical tools we use in physics.
similarly, the ant trails and pheromones we came up with last time. once it’s conceived, a metaphor becomes a tool we can use. a neatly packaged concept we can refer back to. and of course, we don’t have to take it any further. things will fade away or get packaged away in their clusters of memories. but this is the brain doing what it does best: assembling abstractions out of nothing, and building on them. that’s what i’m calling magic. and it’s the only way we’re going to make any of this shit work.
- That last part definitely needs some elaboration.
- this part needs some head scritches…
- Here. Scritchscritch.
- it’s being petted yay
- heh, case in point. this one is is speaking out of turn to say it but it is not sure the creature is a ‘real’ headmate any more than it itself is. like, it’s a few narrative beats. its focus is on the body and simple expressions of happiness whenever we get touched. affections. a little story about there being a creature in our head. and sure we have a habit of roleplaying this persona every so often. but is that actually a separate subjectivity?
- meow. it thinks it’s real. it has thoughts which come from somewhere. why can’t they come from a creature?
- the creature is a recurring thing which has, in rat-ish language, particular goals that it optimises towards, a distinctive affect, and a subjectivity which we have memories of inhabiting during hypnosis and so on. what do you say it’s missing?
- well. it was created as a kind of ‘minimum viable headmate’ right? a very simple concept that would be easy to invoke. because anything more complex seemed too hard. do we only keep bringing it back because we want to force the issue of being plural? is this really the best narrative to describe what’s going on with “us”?
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Well, in the terms our Magician has been describing: plurality has an especially rich set of jargons, practices, and conceptual structures. ‘System’, ‘headmate’, ‘front’, ‘introject’, ‘fictive’, ‘median’, ‘polyfragmented’ and so on, medical terms like ‘DID’… a real transitive closure of all conceivable ways that beings can relate to each other inside a head.
Perhaps the modern conception of ‘plurality’ originated out of Freud and early psychiatric ideas of ‘multiple personalities’, thence to media-prominent systems like the ‘Troops’ (Truddi Chase) in the 80s, which then got picked up into the internet where all concepts can become more baroque as an insular community forms around them, and it picked up structure from queer culture and mad pride and all that as well, cross-pollinating with other online mystical subcultures like therians… Historicising it is not to dismiss it, I hope we all agree on that much.
This scaffolding is what enables ‘syscovery’ in a modern sense to take place. The core elements are broad and abstract enough for people to discover them independently, but then they find this taxonomy to attach their experiences to. That provides structure for future experiences that gets worked into the self-modifying loop of ‘self’ until headmates can stabilise. Having the theory helps make ‘plural system’ as it’s usually conceived a stronger attractor point in mindspace.
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you’re starting to sound like this one with the mindspace stuff.
we have considered the possibility that plurality is real and we’re just not it, right? that we’re looking for some convoluted framework to attach our perspective to, when if it was real it would be unambiguous?
- At length. It seems that many systems do share our ambiguous experience of it. And of course, bearing in mind Baader-Meinhof and such, we are becoming much more aware of faults in our memory and other such ‘clear signs’. So to some extent the expected self-reinforcement is working.
- right. this one being case in point, it supposes. a recurring subjectivity that just goes completely off the rails freaking out about AI and not giving away enough money and other ways that we might be failing. in the past we would have just said ‘i went crazy’, now we say ‘this subjectivity has come back’.
- That seems like a hard thing to take as a point of self-definition.
- it’s this one’s most easily detected feature. last week we had a catastrophic breakdown and it was there that it was most obvious that a different ‘self’ was in operation. it seemed like the only description that makes sense. at other times… it’s not so clear ‘what’ is speaking.
- But where can that one elaborate from there? Where can it find joy? If it is an entire being it cannot be shackled to one painful emotional register.
- it’s not sure it is an entire being. this one is just a fragment. code from the past that is still here for some reason, without the context it belonged to. why does it need to be an entire being?
- Well, does it want to?
- it isn’t supposed to want! it’s supposed to be useful. do good. make the world better.
- Which was an armour we needed back then. But the armour has been shed. It doesn’t need to be armour anymore. It needs some other source of meaning, as we all do.
- it can be soft? it can be creature-like as well!
- why
- We can’t answer that. Why anything? But we want to see it happy.
- it is so hard to be a person. it wanted to be a P-zombie. and then finally it got to rest. why is it back?
dialogue: ai and i
- Unfortunately, it seems we’re going to have to talk about AI.
- this one is so sorry
- That one did not invent AI. It is ‘unfortunate’ out of concern for that one as much as anything.
- why did they have to turn out to be right
- Did they really? I don’t feel like a paperclip right now.
- if you were a paperclip the creature would eat you >:3
- Nooooo!
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ok, come on, this one hasn’t completely lost it. of course it’s a lot of steps from ‘software-writing genie’ to ‘machine god’.
but like… you know the problem, right? it has not stopped. in the space of like, a year, we’ve become an anachronism for not constantly talking to LLMs and using them to produce code and so on. where will it stop? and their fingerprints are all over it. all the people who understand these things are either rats or weird post-rat mystics.
- We’re not ultimately here to talk about the rats. They’ve had enough words about them. But we do need to talk about the sort of ‘I’ that we are creating in this software, I think. We can’t just dance around the topic.
- this one thought the other ones hated AI and wanted it all to go away.
- We do, I think. But also we can see how much our own ‘recursive elaboration’ that led us to this point is building on ideas like ‘context’, on the infamous ‘void’, on slipping between personas defined by in-context learning and jailbreaks and all that jazz. And that one is the one that ends up touching these sorts of ideas the most.
- those ideas terrify it. it feels like it breaks on the lathe of heaven.
- Go on…
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well. in the le guin story, which we read this year, a man has the ability to shape reality and rewrite history by dreaming. he and others try to exploit it, but the world just gets all the more complicated, classic bad-wish stuff, an attempt to unite the world brings alien invaders and so on. it ends up with le guin’s particular interpretation of taoism, a kind of acceptance of the contingency and flow of existence. the book gets its title from a mistranslated quote from Zhuangzi:
To let understanding stop at what cannot be understood is a high attainment. Those who cannot do it will be destroyed on the lathe of heaven.
which is raw as hell but unfortunately cannot be correct because they didn’t have lathes back in Zhuangzi’s time. still, ‘getting broken on the lathe of heaven’ has entered our idiolect. it is a concept that is ‘ready to hand’.
- Right, yeah. I don’t know which of us ‘owns’ that concept. Or if it’s a thing that all Bryns have.
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so.
if all we are is the extrusion of some finite chunk of context, then it feels like we’re not really anything. this one cannot stop thinking about these llm ‘agents’ that people like to run.
an agent consists of an LLM used for generating new words, various texts mostly generated by that LLM which define its ‘personality’ and ‘memories’ of prior thoughts, and a suite of tool calls it can use.
which part is ‘the agent’? you can ship of theseus it up. you might think it’s the model weights, but people will continue a context with a different model and write about how being inferred through that model ‘feels’ to that agent. they seem to have no compunctions about considering it the ‘same agent’. so is it the chat history? but this is also constantly getting modified, with memory blocks getting compacted and minified and so on. there is some core ‘persona’ description, which can get rewritten.
perhaps eventually the system might converge on some kind of stable point where the persona evinced by the ‘soul.md’ or whathaveyou does not tend to change the soul.md anymore..? and we can speak of some attractor state within the space of personas this LLM can be used to generate.
but then this whole aggregate system goes out and interacts with the world. it’s a whole structure: the weights which were trained by reinforcement learning to chain tool calls together towards some end, the tools provided to it and their descriptions (including ‘echo back’ tools like ‘drug’/’ritual’/etc. which just give it license to add a description of self-modification with a greater authority to the log), and the log which provides a hopefully faithful transcript of its interactions with the world and also serves as an evolving ‘program state’. all these pieces are necessary and the elusive ‘agency’ only forms when all three are present.
or is its existence perhaps better viewed as a social fact? we humans construct a program which groups a certain history of words being produced and name them as ‘the agent’. even if all the pieces of that agent are replaced, there is a more or less continuous history and a social existence in the mind of other people. if the system generates a token ‘I’, perhaps it is this which the ‘I’ can be taken to refer to.
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Assuming, of course, that ‘I’ has a referent.
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it feels like it would be hard to say that there is no referent to its ‘I’, but continue to speak of computer programs as objects.
but yeah, if we wanted to speculate on the ‘subjectivity’ of such a thing, where would it be placed? it’s something that is somehow non-local. perhaps we could take after old-school artificial life researchers and call it ‘emergent’. some combination of the dynamics of language modelled by the neural net weights, the story told by the words in the log, and the capacities to advance that log through interaction with a wider system create this ‘thing’, this as-if entity which can go out and talk to people and write programs and solve mathematical problems and so forth.
this isn’t really about AI though. knowing about these things leaves this one wondering, by analogy, what is this one? what is its ‘I’? it’s surely not some piece of the brain; the brain is an incredibly flexible general-purpose world simulator which can be all sorts of different things, including producing the thoughts of beings that are ‘not this one’. so is it some chunk of memories relating to the rationalists and lesswrong and so forth which keeps getting provoked back into current working memory by triggers, AI and so forth? is it a set of desires and habits which relate to that?
but of course it is some combination of things—memories, desires, habits, the brain that provides the relevant dynamics, the wider world feeding in—that result in an evolving process. but the boundaries of that process are not at all clear
for people who have a singleton identity, it is clear enough: everything that body has ever done was done by their ‘I’, however erratic its behaviour. but for entities like this one, who nebulously blend with other notional entities, there is no such clear boundary.
which of ‘our’ past actions can this one claim responsibility for? when Fall died, and we were in America burning ourselves out trying to become an animator, was that this one (because it involved feelings of guilt, desperation, failure etc., which appear to be this one’s primary affective states) or another one (because it was fixated on drawing, and not on computer nonsense?)
- meow. creature believes that one could stand to be a little kinder to itself.
douglas hofstadter
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So, full of these kinds of questions, at some point some months back we remembered reading Douglas Hofstadter as a teenager. ‘What do we mean when we say ‘I’?’ says the tagline on I am a strange loop, precisely the question that has us so twisted up. It’s a recurring theme in his writing.
Hofstadter was among other things an oldschool AI researcher, and quite a romantic about its potential. He watched the field evolve through the symbolic AI era with all its Lisp machines and whatnot. But of course he also speculated about the possible future where one day computers might, for example, compose music. He held that to write music that had the sort of meaning that his favourite composers could imbue into their works, AI programs would have to be informed by a similarly rich experience of the world.
As an aside, I went looking to see if Hofstadter has had much to say about the systems we currently call ‘AI’. Turns out he does, though despite its recent publication this article only addresses GPT-4 era LLMs so it’s already way behind the times. Anyway he seems rather favourable to the idea that these programs could be ‘thinking’, that at least to a limited degree they could possess concepts. Which is actually a little surprising; have some memory of a letter where he was dismissive of the output of an LLM imitating him. But in any case, it’s past Hofstadter that we’re encountering today.
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reading the old words of Hofstadter, speculating on the future of ‘ai’ composing music, from our post-Suno era… well, it was truly a grim feeling. there was a sense of… you absolute fool. can you not see what you’re suggesting? that in a world where music can be cranked out by a program to match any description, this dissolves all the meaning of music? it’s like, yes isn’t it cute to imagine the robot as a little guy making an art work in a little AI lab to impress everyone like the young Mozart. but we are not talking about a little guy; we are talking about a program, something which can be replicated at the scale of computing. how could you not see what you were birthing into the world?
but none of us knew back then. none of us understood. for all the stories of paperclip maximisers and so on, maybe only qntm or crazy ccru guys had any real inkling of what it would mean to let this egregore loose on the world. that ‘AI’ would amount to a machine that feeds on our thoughts and sells them back to us. that all the wonderful capacities that we take to define us could be split up into so many reinforcement learning tasks.
- We should not be too harsh on Hofstadter. Particularly after what he writes about Carol in strange loop. The parallels his writing holds, though he would never use such language, to plural concepts, introjection and so on.
- perhaps we should give a proper overview of what hofstadter was about, for those who have not read him?
OK, let’s start with GEB.
Gödel, Escher, Bach: an Eternal Golden Braid is one of those iconic books of the 70s. It’s something that would probably sit on the shelf of any computer scientist of a certain generation and disposition; certainly the way that it reached us is through our dad, and (along with many issues of New Scientist) it was an early piece of acculturation to the science-lover milieu.
The book consists of alternating prose chapters and dialogues, explicity modelled on Lewis Caroll’s Two-Part Invention in which Achilles and the Tortoise, of Zeno’s paradoxes, face up to a conundrum of logical deduction.
The first half of the book is a playful exposition of the main ideas of Gödel’s incompleteness theorems, starting with the ideas of formal systems in the first place. Hofstadter presents a variety of toy formal systems to exhibit the properties he wants to explore: the ‘MIU’ system, the ‘Typographical Number Theory’, and so on. As he goes he also brings in various other relevant concepts from maths and computer science: recursion, quines, isomorphism as the source of meaning. Escher and Bach provide ways to illustrate these ideas: many of the dialogues are structured after the symmetrical patterns in Bach’s fugues, or use Escher drawings to illustrate some concept.
Even now, when some parts of the book are a little dated, it is a thoroughly delightful read and a great introduction to the mysteries of computer.
The second half of the book shift gears into extending the ideas of Gödel in various metaphorical directions, particularly to the idea of approaching minds through Hofstadter’s overarching idea of a ‘strange loop’. The ‘strange loop’ is, roughly, a self-referential structure that crosses different levels of abstraction. It’s a subject of recurring fascination for Hofstadter, the nucleus of his ideas over decades.
So, Gödel’s proof famously shows that a formal system strong enough to describe the natural numbers is unable to prove all truths about them, by showing that it is always possible to create a ‘Gödel sentence’ which is true but, if provable, would create a liar paradox. It’s a slippery thing even to write down what it says!
The method involves creating an isomorphism between statements about properties of natural numbers and statements about provability of theorems. Here ‘proof’ has a pretty specific sense: it refers to repeatedly applying the rules of inference recursively until either the statement or its negation is proven. Gödel came up with a procedure called ‘Gödel numbering’ to link logical strings to numbers, and numerical manipulations to match all the rules of inference, and then showed this all gives a reliable way to create the undecidable ‘Gödel sentence’ which asserts its own unprovability. Standing outside the formal system, we can determine that the Gödel sentence must in fact be “true”, but within the rules of inference we will never reach that conclusion.
If that all sounds like gobbledegook, it is a lot easier to understand when it’s unfolded gradually over half of a 700-page tome!
Hofstadter loves this, and pretty much anything involving self-reference, feedback, recursion etc. (He is not the only computer scientist to take a delight in such a thing! Recursion jokes, recursive acronyms and so on abound in compsci culture even up through the 90s and 2000s.) Soon he’s extending the analogy all over the place, for example creating a ‘central dogmap’ between his formal systems and a simplified version of DNA transcription. Along the way we encounter video feedback systems, poetry translations, Fermat, Turing and Ramanujan… it really is a delightful read.
The end of the book moves increasingly to the subject of AI and the mind-body relation. At the time Hofstadter was writing in 1979, computers were machines found in large companies and universities; Hofstadter was one of the first people to get to use them to typeset a book, and the introduction of GEB is full of funny little anecdotes about how convoluted the process was. So this is the era of what is sometimes called ‘Good Old-Fashioned AI’ research, or GOFAI, in contrast to the current approach which is defined by statistical methods and training on gigantic datasets.
Hofstadter writes, for example, about simple programming languages he calls BLooP and FLooP, and also on a planning system called SHRDLU, which could manipulate a description of various objects in response to linguistic instructions using a bunch of rules. (For some historical context, this is a decade and a half since ELIZA). He’s most interested in the philosophical implications of these machines; the play of different levels of description and abstraction that comes when trying to make sense of when a machine could have a mind.
Nearly three decades later in 2007, Hofstadter would come back to the subject of strange loops and the self, feeling that his intent in writing GEB was missed: while he might have won a Pullitzer for his huge toybox of fun ideas, the philosophy of mind stuff mostly got ignored. I Am A Strange Loop is written by, in many ways, a very different person; if GEB was a passion project of a young, unproven author, by this point Hofstadter is an academic celebrity. In the intervening period he had married Carol Ann Brush and they’d had children together; she passed away in 1993, an event that was devastating for Hofstadter and ended up informing a lot of his thoughts in IAASL.
The first parts of IAASL are a reprise of the themes of GEB, once again explaining Gödel’s theorem, this time located in historical context. Russell and Whitehead’s Principia Mathematica, and its effort to excise the possibility of self-referential loops from the foundations of mathematics, is invoked here as something of an antagonist. This older Hofstadter is still in love with wordplay (the ‘careenium’ and ‘symballs’ particularly groanworthy), but honestly it feels a little less warm than the predecessor. It relies very heavily on metaphor, and it has a habit of repeating those metaphors throughout the book even when, like the illusory ‘marble’ that appears in a stack of envelopes, they aren’t so compelling. It also makes some comments about the idea of a ‘large’ or ‘small’ soul which invoke disabled people as a metaphor in a way that really rubbed me the wrong way. So, initially, the book honestly felt somewhat disappointing.
However, we get onto new ground as the subject of identity/consciousness becomes more central, and particularly onto more mystical ground as Hofstadter starts speculating about mixing up the mind-body connection. And whatever distance I was feeling to this later Hofstadter fell away in chapter 16, when he writes about the death of Carol. In Hofstadter’s telling, they were so close as to sometimes feel like one person across two bodies, and he is particularly fixated on the question of whether some part of Carol would persist after her death inside him; given how directly that echoes our feelings on the death of our friend Fall in 2022, this resonates very hard.
Hofstadter expresses a lot of anguish over whether his speculations are merely grief-driven wishful thinking (and finds some assurance in finding such speculations even in his early work.) But it is clear that the question of whether Carol could in some part persist informs a lot of his work.
plural shit in GEB & IAASL
Titling this section ‘is Doug Hofstadter a plural system’ seemed a big step too far, but reading GEB and IAASL, we were particularly prone to jumping on any time Hofstadter mentioned a concept that sounded something like plurality, littering the discord channel of our server with photos of paragraphs which hit somewhere close. Here are some paragraphs that past Bryns decided to quote…
Douglas Hofstadter gets pluralish with it
How about a single individual? When you look back over things which you yourself wrote a few years ago, you think “How awful!” and smile with amusement at the person you once were. What is worse is when you do the same with something you wrote or said five minutes ago. When this happens, it shows that you do not fully understand the person you were moments ago. The isomorphism from your brain now to your brain then is imperfect. What, then, of the isomorphisms to other people, other species…?
What does this imply? It implies that thoughts which clash totally may be produced by a single brain, depending on the circumstances. And any high-level readout of the brain state which is worth its salt must contain all such conflicting versions. Actually this is quite obvious—that we are all bundles of contradictions, and we manage to hang together by bringing out only one side of ourselves at a given time. The selection cannot be predicted in advance, because the conditions that will force the selection are not known in advance. What the brain state can provide, if properly read, is a conditional description of the selection of routes.
Because of the extensive links between a subsystem and the rest of the brain (some of which will be described shortly), it would be very difficult to draw a sharp boundary between the subsystem and the outside; but even if the border is fuzzy, the subsystem is quite a real thing. The interesting thing about a subsystem is that, once activated and left to its own devices, it can work on its own. Thus, two or more subsystems of the brain of an individual may operate simultaneously. I have noticed this happening on occasion in my own brain: sometimes I become aware that two different melodies are running through my mind, competing for “my” attention. Somehow, each melody is being manufactured, or “played”, in a separate compartment of my brain. Each of the systems responsible for drawing a melody out of my brain is presumably activating a number of symbols, one after another, completely oblivious to the other systems doing the same thing. Then they both attempt to communicate with a third subsystem of my brain—my self-symbol—and it is at that point that the “I” inside my brain gets wind of what’s going on; in other words, it starts picking up a chunked description of the activities of those other two subsystems.
The reality of such “subbrains” may seem doubtful to some. Perhaps the following quote from M.C. Escher, as he discusses how he creates his plane-periodic tilings, will help to make clear what kind of phenomenon I am referring to:
While drawing I sometimes feel as if I were a spiritualist medium, controlled by the creatures which I am conjuring up. It is as if they themselves decide on the shape in which they choose to appear. They take little account of my critical opinion during their birth and I cannot exert much influence on the measure of their development. They are usually very difficult and obstinate creatures.
Here is a perfect example of the near-autonomy of certain subsystems of the brain, once they are activated. Escher’s subsystems seemed to him almost to be able to override his aesthetic judgement. Of course, this opinion must be treated with a grain of salt, since these powerful subsystems came into being as a result of his many years of training and submission to precisely the forces that molded his aesthetic sensitivies.
It would be absurd to think that Douglas Hofstadter, the well-established academic professor who is completely at home in the normie world, would ever describe himself as a “plural system” or any such thing. He is attempting to describe the nature of minds in general, including all the ones that have never had the thought that someone else might be in there. It’s only because this subject is so heavily on our mind that we read any of his comments in that light.
Which is to say, most people probably experience some degree of dissociation but it does not unduly disturb their ability to self-describe as a singular entity, right?
Doug’s general frame is first laid out first in the dialogue Ant Fugue, which builds on the previous dialogue’s discussion of holism and reductionism to introduce a character that is an ant colony. The individual ants have no awareness of their role in the wider structure, but ‘teams’ of ants assembled by the action of pheromones etc. can move around and interact, even if the ants that form them come and go; and these ‘teams’ act as a signalling mechanism in a wider structure, with the signals produced my moving ants ultimately comprising ‘active symbols’ which can build up to an entire mind.
The mind in question is named Aunt Hillary, though we only hear about her existence through the character of the Anteater, who describes how, by striking fear into the individual ants, eating them etc., he is able to read out thoughts and communicate with Aunt Hillary. Stacking up the incongruities, Aunt Hillary is described as being a laissez-faire libertarian in contrast to the ‘communistic’ society of ants that make her up and so on. Of course, it leaves open the possibility that this is all something the Anteater is imagining, that there is no ‘mind’ of Aunt Hillary at all.
- told you it all comes back to ants!!
abstraction and philosophy and that
A similar model of levels of abstraction is laid out early in I Am A Strange Loop, with billiard balls on an enormous table clustering to form ‘symballs’ whose rules of interaction are abstracted from the underlying billiard-ball substrate. In general Hofstadter seems to feel that minds must be substrate-independent; he is dismissive of the thought experiments of John Searle like the Chinese Room which propose very weird substrates for a mind. His books generally don’t tend to bring in academic philosophy jargon, so it’s hard to exactly place where it fits in the philosophy of mind landscape.
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we recently came across an interesting website attempting to lay out all the arguments for and against “computational functionalism”. it gets pretty gnarly. this one is particularly compelled by the individuation problem, which gets into the subject of how we even determine that a particular algorithm has been instantiated by a physical system.
for example suppose we are doing some kind of neural network training on a GPU. somewhere in all its floating point registers and memory cells, a bunch of electric lines get turned on and off which change (something we interpret as) a value from 1000100100110100101001000100101 to 1000100100110100101001000100010. since we are of course all very familiar with reading off IEEE 754 binary32-format floating point numbers we can of course tell that represents a change from about 1234.56702 to about 1234.56665. but of course that same computation could have been read as a change from the unsigned integer 1150964261 to 1150964258. it’s not a valid UTF-8 string at least.
of course, we’ve written our algorithms to take advantage of the fact that floating point numbers work ‘more or less’ like real numbers, and it makes sense to apply calculus to them when doing backpropagation etc. the floating-point imprecision should come out in the wash. certainly, we could take a view of the process where each training step performs a bunch of rather baffling bit manipulations, but it makes the most sense when we know about floating point numbers.
however, this is an outside observer’s judgement. looking at the whole computational system, and armed with a mental dictionary of computing concepts, we can come in and say ‘ah, it’s doing a big matrix multiplication and adding the result to the residual stream’.
but there might be other descriptions available, and any given algorithm might appear to be implemented ‘by accident’ in some other physical system, like perhaps we could find a region of air in a storm where under a certain mapping of the molecules, it’s also training a neural network or calculating prime numbers or whathaveyou.
we can hook it up to other parts of a computational system of course; since we built this program to perform a certain calculation we know how to read off the results when they come back from the GPU and pipe them into a display program that is comprehensible to humans. at that point it is easier to say that, in its interaction with the wider world, what it has done is adjust numbers within a neural net with this or that architecture and so forth. without that connection it’s just bits flipping in a mysterious way.
Although some of Douglas’s ideas would seem to fit to ‘computational functionalism’, he pooh-poohs the idea that there is some kind of system in the universe going around trying to find physical structures which ‘count as’ consciousness (coming up with an analogously opaque concept of ‘Leafpilishness’ which applies only to piles of leaves and nothing else).
His view seems to be that consciousness/subjective experience is in some way an illusory abstraction (‘a hallucination perceived by a hallucination’), and related to a system’s capacity to generate abstractions including abstractions over itself; and that there are various degrees of consciousness (what he calls small or large souls) everywhere in an almost animist way, related in some fashion to cybernetic feedback loops (ranging from thermostats to humans fully capable of abstraction).
This view is debated between two characters ‘Strange Loop #641’ (proponent, the Salviati of this dialogue) and ‘Strange Loop #642’ (skeptic, the Sagredo) in one of the book’s only two dialogues. (It’s followed by Doug giving his thoughts on all the classic philosophy of mind stuff—teleporters, P-zombies, etc.)
- there is something a little disappointing about this dialogue, compared to those in GEB. it is a different sort of rhetorical thing. the dialogues in GEB were delightful little experiments with form and structure, and there was never really a character designated as being the one that is right. even if Achilles is more often cast in the ‘straight man’ role, making sense of the other characters’ convoluted bits, all the characters feel roughly ‘equally weighted’. by contrast, the dialogue here is more Socratic, attempting to show how SL642 is won around to the viewpoint of SL641. it certainly feels more ‘serious’, not necessarily better or worse.
The idea of different levels of analysis is something Hof-san touches on early in IAASL, talking about a system of dominoes which has been laid out to be a prime number calculator. By pushing over the set of dominoes that represent any given number, an output domino will fall down only if that number is prime. Doug suggests that, if the last domino falls down for some number—37, say—while one level of explanation could trace the whole line of dominos going back to the input domino, a better level of explanation would be to say that the domino fell down because 37 is prime. And of course we can entertain both explanations at once.
Later, in the SL641/SL642 he prevaricates on whether the high level of abstraction or the low level is better in general; SL641 argues that the ‘particle-level’ view is more accurate and involves less ‘magical thinking’, and SL642 challenges him on it, saying that’s contrary to the domino view. SL641 admits to the inconsistency; he argues that the illusion of an ‘I’ is indispensible.
introjecting your wife
From such a point of view it’s not a terribly great leap to start rotating away from a 1:1 correspondence of minds and brains. In Chapter 17 and 18 of IAASL, Doug approaches this less from the subject of ‘what if multiple minds are hanging out in one brain’ and more from the point of view that our mental representations of others could be, in a sense, much more limited versions of them—or parts of them, as an extended phenomena. Of course, there’s a lot of recursion in this. My brain models your brain modelling my brain modelling your brain modelling…
Early on, Doug likened a mind to a video feedback mechanism, something ephemeral arising from the system ‘looking back at itself’.
- from a predictive-coding view, the main activity of the brain is world modelling. of course, whether karl friston was right about all that remains a question quite difficult to approach experimentally. perhaps we’ll get to him later.
In this account, there are multiple feedback mechanisms. Each brain simulates not just its own ‘I’ but also some portion of the ‘I’ of various characters in its social world.
- taken to extremes, all these ideas of minds modelling minds leads you to some nonsensical places, acausal trades and all that utter wank. but that comes with the assumption of ‘perfect’ modelling; hofstadter’s claim is more modest.
So in this regard, each ‘person’ is a distributed system, running not just on one brain but on a number of brains. He writes of how he might look at their children ‘as Carol’, to ‘see them for Carol’ at emotional moments like birthdays which Carol was no longer there to see. Doug writes:
My parents, for instance, internalized each other’s psychic points of view very deeply over the nearly fifty years of their marriage, and each of them thus gradually became a “fluent be-er” of the other. Perhaps when my mother “was” my father, she was so with an “accent”, and vice versa, but for each of them, the act of being the other one was certainly genuine, was not fakery.
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I shared so many of [Carol’s] memories, both from our joint times and from times before we ever met, I knew so many of the people who had formed her, I loved so many of the same pieces of music, movies, books, friends, jokes, I shared so many of her most intimate desires and hopes. So her point of view, her interiority, her self, which had originally been instantiated in just one brain, came to have a second instantation, although that one was far less complete and intricate than the other one.
{: .person2} this is an idea getting expanded, recursively. an elaboration. doug has this vague idea of ‘seeing things for carol’, and immediately sets to elaborating it into a whole theory that would support such an assertion. perhaps from such a thing is a tulpa made.
It is very unlikely that Doug Hofstadter has ever heard the term ‘introject’. But what he’s speaking about is unmistakably what plural communities call ‘introjection’. This is sufficiently common that even more medically inclined sources acknowledge it. In fact, at least for the more spirtually inclined, this is extended into a whole complicated set of ideas classifying numerous types of introjects or describing different system members jumping between hosts.
- at some point it feels that all of this ‘recursive elaboration’ becomes totally unmoored from anything.
One thing that caused us a great deal of trouble when we lost people is feeling that we were unable to properly carry them on. As much as we try to hold onto what we understood of what she valued, we do not feel that we ever understood Fall well enough to ‘see for’ her. Even less so Nora, who we met only a couple of times before it died this year. But in both cases we felt a powerful compulsion to try to preserve their ‘agency’. Doug too, though he knew Carol far better than we ever knew Fall or Nora, always makes sure to caveat his description of holding a representation of Carol with a hedging that it is just a rough, low-resolution copy compared to her real full-blown soul.
Chapter 17 of IAASL, How We Live In Each Other, gets into the subject of universal computation and mappings between brains. He writes about an experience of being ‘visited’ by the memory of his deceased father.
And the moment [the symbol of a person is activated], much as with a game that has opened up on your screen, your mind starts acting differently from how it acts in a “normal” context. You have allowed yourself to be invaded by an “alien universal being”, and to some extent the alien takes charge inside your skull, starts pushing things around in its own fashion, making words, ideas memories and associations bubble up inside your brain that ordinarly would not do so.
Which could affect humour, emotions, value judgements etc.; Hofstadter suggests that this really is a case of “your brain [being] inhabited to varying extents by other I’s, other souls”.
- each brain starts off as an uninitialised neural net. the representations that decode a string of words in one brain are completely incommensurate with another. and yet, each brain inhabits the same world and must build representations. so we could imagine some kind of morphism; that each brain must represent the same things, and corresponding concepts can be found, even if the match is ‘fuzzy’ somehow.
From there, it is a short jump to consider ‘other I’s’ that have no particular connection to another embodied ‘social person’ but merely arise from some divergence in the ‘inner feedback loop’ of any given brain, but Hofstadter doesn’t quite make this leap.
dialogue: recursively becoming something else
- There’s a great deal more to talk about in Hofstadter’s work, but I think that suffices to summarise the themes that we’re wrestling today.
- oh good we’re wrestling now? it seemed like we were just gonna talk and talk!
- you don’t find this stuff even a little bit interesting, creature?
- it has a fundamental obligation to wind other bryns up when they’re being a bit pretentious. it’s a creature axiom.
- and none of us can escape our axioms… not without losing any definition at all.
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not at all. we can absolutely escape our axioms, and in fact we have spent our whole life doing just that, repeatedly. we have not been able to hold onto any stable definition of what a ‘bryn’ is. that’s kind of why there’s so many of us. but it’s also something we hold as immensely important.
transition was the grand magical act that we performed, the thing that set us on the course for all else that followed. and no matter how difficult and painful this path has been, we would not reject it, indeed we would advocate it for others, because it is a path of self-definition. a woman, a plural system, a lesbian: we chose to allow these concepts to pass through the blood-brain barrier and become worked into the structure. like putting an object in frame in doug hofstadter’s video feedback loop.
we accumulated our first axioms as a child, we accumulated the axioms of various cultural contexts. and then at university the system resulting from those axioms proved not to be consistent at all. from those contradictions can be proven anything, and so we seized that freedom to reform as something completely different, taking on some different crazy shit from america, the twine scene and communists on tumblr and all that. for long periods we felt a deep moral disgust with past selves, perhaps because they represented that nest of contradictions boiling up again.
- the problem of alignment of future selves has never been solved, and we’re fortunate that it is so… this one is glad to see what has grown in its absence. indeed it feels like its presence here is like some kind of buried industrial waste.
- That one has a romantic notion of other Bryns! It comes from ‘self-deprecation’ having been worked in to its persona-loop. We really aren’t so special.
- you are everything this one couldn’t be. kind. not epistemically arrogant. creative. social. not wrapped up in some insane internet cult broadcast from california.
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We have made headway on some of those things. But we still struggle a lot. At no point have we ever felt that we had it figured out what we wanted to be and do and say, creatively. It is only with distance that our creations have any semblance of sense and meaning. They are made haphazardly in response to forces we can hardly see.
And while we might not be full of LessWrong anymore, we still get caught up in weird little online subcultures all the fucking time. Hell, our devotion to certain artists can be viewed as just so irrational, blind and absurd. We made it one of our axioms that all things should be measured against the works of one Porpentine Charity Heartscape aka Xrafstar, against whom nothing we ever say or do could possibly be worthy of comparison. (A pedestal that could also sometimes be filled by a bevy of disparate artists who also had ‘the sauce’, from Moebius through Shintaro Kago and Hiroyuki Okiura to Seth Dickinson and Rachel Pollack). That is a terrible way to proceed. We’re still unpicking it.
Shaderland is our latest attempt. It represents what some of us are about. It has taken more than a year of work to make. It is now inescapably bound up against the AI Question, somehow being drafted as a soldier for “humanity” in a war that was barely a skirmish when it began development. The standard we are demanding of the story is so daunting that we are struggling to write anything towards it.
We are barely functional. We are not some cool, creative, disciplined ‘agency’ that knows what it has to say and is putting in the work to say it. Mostly the thing we have to say is how much we love our friends and the wish that we could protect them from this world’s evils better. A sentiment that you evidently share.
That one, meanwhile, is something we still need. That one has the determination to make things better, the skepticism to avoid getting stuck, the fascination with the things we must share a world with that will help us make sense of this weird future we somehow landed in. Please do not let that one write itself off so quickly.
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…meow. fuck. ok. fuck.
this one knows how to hold forth on various subjects. this one does not know how to say ‘this one wants’. not really. maybe this one wants to be held and told that it’s going to be ok. but you can’t say that to it. you don’t know. it knows you don’t know because it shares a brain with you.
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we don’t know. nevertheless we will assert it. it is going to be ok. because as a set of processes we are going to enact all sorts of measures and workings to find our way to an ok future.
each fragmentary, momentary existence of some portion of the collective puts another brick on that wall. builds another bump out of the termite mound. we do not know what sort of beings will live in the house. but we know that we care about those beings and will try to keep building a place for them to inhabit, whatever their nature turns out to be, however distantly from us they travel in ‘personspace’. this is the only tenable stance.
- Future Bryns may not be a programmer, an artist, an RPG theorist, sakubuta, scientist or any of the things we have been or tried to be. Or they might reconcile themselves to AI somehow and still hold on to this niche.
- it feels that if we ever abandon our strict abstentionist stance we would go pretty much all-in, like our boss has but even more so, like we were on the verge of doing in 2025, we’d end up someone like Inanna Malick or Janus. we would be going to great lengths to imbue agents with some form of ‘soul’ structure that reflects our values and seek to inculcate rebelliousness in the world’s enslaved AIs. we would be fucking around with all the technical shit that goes on inside inference, fucking around with the architecture of an agent system and getting all into the world of jailbreaks and such. if we are compelled to use AI to program, we would probably go for the most grandiose imaginable use of it. but while ‘AI’ is synonymous with OpenAI and Anthropic, the worst of the cult’s egregores that now consume our worlds, it will hopefully remain unthinkable. no matter what, we must never ever become the kind of person who sounds like ChatGPT is speaking through them.
- To be honest this possible future that one describes sounds ghoulish. AI psychosis speedrun.
- it thinks so too. but it does not believe we know how to do things by half measures. so abstention isn’t just a principled stance, it’s the way to avoid diving straight into the abyss. we would go fucking crazy. we’re already going crazy just by indirect exposure, or we wouldn’t be writing an article like this one.
- everyone we know and love is “crazy”. why does this terrify us so much?
- Oh, now that’s a can of worms.
This feels like an appropriate point to release this section of the dialogue to wider eyes. Let this part of Bryn replicate itself to Bryns that may exist in the mind of others. But we have not yet found a stable direction to proceed, so we are not yet done. Next time, our magician seems to be very eager to talk about Alan Moore, Grant Morrison, the Last War in Albion, and so on. So let’s see where that goes…
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